The new beginning.

I'm stopping right where I said I would.

This was quick, but not quite painless.

The old you was a virus inside my head.

The new you is a ghost I've never got to know, nor I wish to.

I hoped you choked in your own lies, like I wanted to cry you a fucking river and drown you in my own tears.

I promised myself it'd be as if you never existed.
Past tense.

I'm breaking that promise right here and right now.

You did exist. You left me when you wanted to. I'm not denying the obvious now, not anymore.

This is the last goodbye.

Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

Dear life, when I asked "can my day get any worse?"...it was a rhetorical question not a challenge.

It was never the last goodbye.

In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never never stay

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

You took my heart away
oh I wish, I wish you could have stayed.

This is not the end.

So~

These last few days have been kinda like a rollercoaster.

Happy pills, sleepy pills, calm-me-the-fuck-down pills, I have to take them all. And I am, just because they say I'm one of those patients with high risk of stopping the meds halfway, makes me want to be stubborn and get better while taking this crap for half a year or more.

It might be worse than we thought. But we'll leave that to the pros, I'm just a student. I'VE BEEN STUDYING! *gimme an aleluia*

Truth be told, classes were supposed to have started for me like two days ago, but there's no schedule yet, so I have extended vacations xD

Studying Psychology here is a challenge, really.

1 ano *

E assim passou um ano de namoro :)

Um ano perfeito, might I add ♥

Podemos ter azar em tudo o resto, mas um com o outro tivémos (e temos) muita sorte ♥

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This love won't fade away

And through the hardest days

I'll never question us

You are the reason

My only reason *